I want to stop writing about depression.

Three Magic 8-Balls

I want to stop writing about depression. I’m sick of writing about depression.

I had fooled myself into thinking that I might not feel this way anymore. After the divorce. I was free, I thought.

I remember feeling like this before. I remember sitting outside on the little deck attached to our upstairs bedroom. I liked it there. I could look into the little natural waterway below and the overgrowth of trees and brush that bordered our house. I remember sitting on the little plastic chair, my mind turning a million ways, hoping that it would just go away. Wishing that he would notice and help me but not knowing how he could. Sometimes it seems like I spent our whole marriage waiting for him. To come home, to notice, to care, to lighten up, to respect me. He didn’t know what to do. How could he? Once it was…

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The Narcissist Stalker: Missing You or Mentally Unstable?

Let Me Reach with Kim Saeed

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You tried to end the relationship with your Narcissistic partner, and suddenly they bombarded you with loving texts and emails, and/or showed up at your social events or place of employment.  It’s like the high school boyfriend – on steroids.

For those who haven’t experienced these kinds of behavior before, the difference between (feigned) affection and mental instability can be blurred.  In fact, under the influence of the Narcissist, we often come loose at the seams and their psychopathic behaviors don’t seem so bad, after all.  This is frightening in itself because it’s a sign that we are losing the capacity for logical thought.

See how he loves and misses me so deeply that he can’t go a minute without me?

I invite you to come out of the crazy-making, victim peptide-induced haze and see what’s going on.  Think back to your past relationships and make some distinctions about your Narcissistic…

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The jaw-dropping promise — and brain-twisting challenge — of quantum computing


Computers have become so powerful that the idea they can’t just do, you know, everything is almost unfathomable. Yet many calculations are still too big for even the biggest supercomputer to process — like cracking complex encryptions or modeling global weather systems. That’s where the promise of quantum computing comes in. With the principles of quantum mechanics at its core (more on this below), quantum computers can, in theory, provide exponentially more power and speed than today’s supercomputers — in a much smaller space. The idea has been around for decades, but today, scientists like TED Fellow Jonathan Home and his team at the Institute for Quantum Electronics in Switzerland are, atom by atom, taking quantum computing out of the realm of theory and into reality. Here, Home walks us through how quantum computing works, some of the challenges of creating a fully functioning system — and how it could…

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Your summer reading list: 70+ book picks from TED speakers and attendees

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Summer reading recommendations from TED

The tables in bookstores can be overwhelming: Every book cover looks appealing, every blurb glows with praise. Sometimes, you just need a recommendation from a human, someone you trust. Below, 10 members of the TED community — with very different points of view — share the books they think you’ll enjoy this summer. Their selections are wonderfully untethered to new releases and bestsellers, with a little something for everyone.

David Eagleman and TED
Mind-bending fiction, picked by David Eagleman

David Eagleman is a neuroscientist whose sensory vest may just expand the limits of human perception. But this TED speaker is also a writer  — of both fiction (his Sum: Forty Tales from the Afterlives has been translated into 28 languages) and nonfiction (Incognito: The Secret Lives of the Brain was a bestseller). His recommendations highlight mind-bending fiction:

Labyrinths by Jorge Luis Borges. “An inspiration that never runs out of batteries for me…

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Dabbing is a dangerous way teens get high, but dab art is beautiful


An article recently published in the journal Pediatrics warns teens to stay away from dabbing: apparently a trendy, new way to get high on marijuana. To dab, people are using butane to get very high concentrations of THC from cannabis, which exists in the form of waxy butane hash oil (BHO). This is dangerous because you need a blowtorch to extract the THC, and blowtorches are dangerous. Also, the super-concentrated THC gets you very high very quickly, which can be harmful.

Authors John Stogner and Bryan Lee Miller explain how the process works in their article,”Assessing the Dangers of ‘Dabbing’: Mere Marijuana or Harmful New Trend?” NBC News has excerpts from the piece:

“Blasting involves passing butane through a steel or glass tube packed with dried cannabis trimmings… because butane is very volatile, it evaporates (or is purged within a vacuum oven), leaving crystalized resins that can have a THC concentration approaching 80…

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Beginning a Blog on ThoughtVectors


I was immediately curious to participate in the conversation nexus of conceptual thinkers when I first laid eyes on it. I originally stumbled across the term Thought Vectors in reference to Google’s Deepthink project, which is striving for an artificial intelligence network that derives its parameters from an aggregate of real world data instead of from inflexible rule-based learning. So very analogous to traditional classroom learning versus self-directed online learning. I’m not at all convinced that human language can be reduced to a series of numbers, but on the other hand, just because a person doesn’t understand how something takes place doesn’t mean such a mystery is unsolvable.


Conspiracy Theories and Mathematical Probabilities

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Conspiracy Theories and Mathematical Probabilities

Richard Charnin
May 25, 2012
Updated: May 26, 2014

Click Reclaiming Science:The JFK Conspiracy to look inside the book.

Look inside: Matrix of Deceit: Forcing Pre-election and Exit Polls to Match Fraudulent Vote Counts

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JFK Calc Spreadsheet Database

It’s an interesting exercise to calculate mathematical probabilities of so-called “conspiracy theories”. The mainstream media and their cadre of online gatekeepers use the term “Conspiracy Theorist” (CT) as a derogatory label for those who seek the truth. According to the media, there are never conspiracies. But they avoid factual discussions based on the scientific evidence.

These myths are promoted non-stop in the mainstream media.
– Oswald acted alone in 1963 – with a magic bullet and defective rifle.
– Bush won Florida in 2000 and had a 3 million “mandate” in 2004.
– Nineteen Muslims armed with box cutters who could not fly a…

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